This month I'm going to share blog posts about the Spotlight launch party for craft month, that I was lucky enough to be invited to. SIDE NOTE : Spotlight are having craft sessions from 11- 3pm on Saturday and Sundays throughout the month of March. So check out your local Spotlight for details.
Before I get into all the fun craft posts, I wanted to get REAL with you all for a moment and share something you wont know about me, and if I'm honest even sharing this is making me feel anxious. I've been asked to attend events in the past and I always decline. WHY? I don't decline because I have something on, I don't decline because I don't want to go, because I really, really do. I decline because even the thought of going, has me in a nervous panic and my anxiety kicks into over drive. NOW, I haven't always been like this, I feel in the last 3-4 years, I've gotten worse and there is no reason for it? I feel I'm going back to when I was young, insecure and shy.
So what was different this time round? This fantastic event hosted by Spotlight was slightly different in that my girls were more than welcome to attend. This to me, having my girls with me would be an ice breaker and something for them both to enjoy. Is it silly that I had to have my 9 and 10 year old with me in order to attend and feel slightly less anxious? I mean yeah, it does sound kinda ridiculous, right? Deep down I know that, but my emotions take over. I'd never attended any event like this before and so I didn't know what to expect. At the end of the day we went even after I thought to pull out twice before leaving my town. We all had an amazing time, crafting while young is fun and educational at the same time. All the event hosts were nothing but welcoming and fantastic to speak with, making me feel at ease. Having gone now, it's definitely something that I could attend in the future, even without my two little security blankets. When you have people, mainly your husband and best friend, Kristy [who all but told me I was going, because she gets me], that know you inside and out and tell you they are proud of you for attending, which might sound silly to some, you know you've jumped a hurdle in the right direction.
My word for 2017 is FOCUS. I want to focus on going outside of my comfort zone and letting go of fear that holds me back. Slowly of course, haha. Doing this event was a step closer.
